how pathetic, how lonely, how nerdy, how moody, how emo, how ugly
i am now.
i coulden care because its the only life i could lead now.
2 years later i woulden be and shall not be like this anymore
it will be a brand new start then.
hopefully a smooth and happy one.

phew. im stressed

Do you ever believe in lost and gaining?

When you gains something, you probably will lose something somewhr else.
and, it could be anything..

I losted my handphone(barely 2 months) around 2 weeks ago.
& i believed it was bcos..i won a handphone a few months ago very easily.
It was a kido art competition, thats why i've won.

Today on my way to sch, i boarded bus no.154.
I was surprised at why the bus had much lesser ppl den any other days. (it was usually packed dao siao)
The next thing i knew, half way through the journey,the bus no.246 broke dao.
A load of commuters had to board this the bus i've boarded.
In the end, the bus was 'samely' packed like any other day..

today after that i k-boxed..

fancy another normal day..
except for those monday blues..for me & rosy.

makan at jurong point after school & i didn't get to watch <<881>>

because the time was tooo late..i don't want my hp to be calling(from my mother).

zhou chong qing is so funny.
i find him a little like gay...guoxun.hahas



a funny video by chongqing & jiahui.
how creative! hahas.

today was a messy night..grrrr
today was meant to be a night of celebrations & me rosy gx end up going from one place to another.

yea, what happened.
we met up at lakeside mrt. thinking of where to makan dinner.
all right, it was 399 we decided.
and we walked all the way.

arhh. don't felt like elaborating further. we just had dinner there.

we went to jp..hopefully to watch the movie <<881>>

no..we nv did..because the earliest show starts at 9.40..which was toooo late.
so, a wasted trip.

rosy wanted to watch fireworks at 399 again.
we walked our way there.

and what.
there was no event for fireworks at alllllll!

haha.......how goons we were.

saw many people today,
junko&rachel...plus many...
& daren peh long!
long time never saw him. still the same..nerdy.

all right.

i felt worst almost for the whole day..no particular resons. & i just feel extremely upset. it worsens since today had been raining.
thinking about life seems to be what my brain likes to do most of the time.

i began to thought of the reasons that made me upset.
1. money - i terribly broke. my little amount of pocket money can't survive me at all, even though i don't even spend on anything, just food. Looking around the people surrounding me, i realised why. My friends are all rich. and im just a poor average. they don't have to be aware how they are spending those $. i had to. which is irritating. yea. i know i have to get a JOB. & this is another reason that made me upset. because i don't like to get around people&people at all. I can't seem to find a job anywhr too. i just told my mother about my 'too little' pocket money..& i understand, this is ard the most she could give. my mother has 3 kids. i know shes trying to make $..

2. people- i feel weird around people. im NOT happy at all. and i am NOT myself at all..except when i am with xinen & guoxun. and i don't know why. i felt that humans are not supposed to be like this. somehow i still don't like the characters of people around me. i know this is no good, it does not benefits me at all. maybe i should just learn to accept. sorry,not now. im hating everything&everyone.

i have goals to achieve . and i want them to come true. that means hard work too.
now, the best i could acheive, was to do really well in my studies& my piano.

wish me luck, diary.

my english is failing. i don't get why. i reads..maybe partially. all right.. end of first post