hows life recently?
fun. but im scared.

i worked at the I.T show..& i enjoyed the experience.
knowing more pl..waking up early and coming home late together with pris & fwds.
It was like camping. & i enjoyed it. (i miss it nw)
but knowing more pl..means stress as well.
i may not handle new pl well.

but they are quite diff frm those pl i use to know...haha
friendly,socialble
im just afraid all this woulden last long.
i hope they do.

today#
k-box with weekang,guoxun,rosy
gx everytime laugh when i go offff key. thankkkks

they. are another batch of great pl.
those i feel happy with together, so i hope friendships do last a lifetime.

exams are nearrr!
jiayou ba everyone...!

How evil could a person's mind could be?
or how kind-hearted a person's heart could posses?

humans are selfish.
including myself.

and when are people selfish?
~when they ain't in the mood to show you kindness.

Unselfish?
~when you show them enough kindness first.

i realised.

after all, this is world.
ruled by humans.

when I smile, i smile BIG
when I swell my face, i do it big time as well.

i hate why.
bcos people may not understand.
as well as i could not understand as well.

thats why,
sometimes i love and would rather be alone.

Today, my mother bought approximately 1 year supply of ice-cream.haha~

We saw an king's ice cream factory sale ad.. the prices were cheap..
so we went.

The discount allthough wasn't much, but its still a discount.
and my mother die-die also want to be member.

haha, so we have to buy @ least an amount of $50 worth of ice-cream.

First time in my life, i could choose so much ice-cream and saw the fridge packed entirely with ice-cream.

LOL
$54.70

its as though i could eat icecream for years~ 7 tubs..2 boxes x 20pieces...2 boxes x 10 pieces..and another 2 boxes x 10 pieces..somewhere there.

I want a job!
lol, i guess rosy have heard i say this for a millllionth time liao.

"ahya, everytime say only never find one lah'' -rosy

okay..why?
i dunno,becos i don't know where to start.
jobs available now for a fifteen year old.

are only like..being a sales girl @bugis or far east..or a tiring job @ fast-food chains.
cancel away the last one.. because life sucks there
so, whats left.

to get a job there. i need $ first to LOOK pretty enough for a job there.
and i hate to communicate with strangers.
and i also no money to dress appropriately in the first place.
so.
no need think ler lo.
haha..continue daydreaming& sleeping lo.

studyyyyyyy ba!

how pathetic, how lonely, how nerdy, how moody, how emo, how ugly
i am now.
i coulden care because its the only life i could lead now.
2 years later i woulden be and shall not be like this anymore
it will be a brand new start then.
hopefully a smooth and happy one.

phew. im stressed

Do you ever believe in lost and gaining?

When you gains something, you probably will lose something somewhr else.
and, it could be anything..

I losted my handphone(barely 2 months) around 2 weeks ago.
& i believed it was bcos..i won a handphone a few months ago very easily.
It was a kido art competition, thats why i've won.

Today on my way to sch, i boarded bus no.154.
I was surprised at why the bus had much lesser ppl den any other days. (it was usually packed dao siao)
The next thing i knew, half way through the journey,the bus no.246 broke dao.
A load of commuters had to board this the bus i've boarded.
In the end, the bus was 'samely' packed like any other day..

today after that i k-boxed..

fancy another normal day..
except for those monday blues..for me & rosy.

makan at jurong point after school & i didn't get to watch <<881>>

because the time was tooo late..i don't want my hp to be calling(from my mother).

zhou chong qing is so funny.
i find him a little like gay...guoxun.hahas



a funny video by chongqing & jiahui.
how creative! hahas.

today was a messy night..grrrr
today was meant to be a night of celebrations & me rosy gx end up going from one place to another.

yea, what happened.
we met up at lakeside mrt. thinking of where to makan dinner.
all right, it was 399 we decided.
and we walked all the way.

arhh. don't felt like elaborating further. we just had dinner there.

we went to jp..hopefully to watch the movie <<881>>

no..we nv did..because the earliest show starts at 9.40..which was toooo late.
so, a wasted trip.

rosy wanted to watch fireworks at 399 again.
we walked our way there.

and what.
there was no event for fireworks at alllllll!

haha.......how goons we were.

saw many people today,
junko&rachel...plus many...
& daren peh long!
long time never saw him. still the same..nerdy.

all right.

i felt worst almost for the whole day..no particular resons. & i just feel extremely upset. it worsens since today had been raining.
thinking about life seems to be what my brain likes to do most of the time.

i began to thought of the reasons that made me upset.
1. money - i terribly broke. my little amount of pocket money can't survive me at all, even though i don't even spend on anything, just food. Looking around the people surrounding me, i realised why. My friends are all rich. and im just a poor average. they don't have to be aware how they are spending those $. i had to. which is irritating. yea. i know i have to get a JOB. & this is another reason that made me upset. because i don't like to get around people&people at all. I can't seem to find a job anywhr too. i just told my mother about my 'too little' pocket money..& i understand, this is ard the most she could give. my mother has 3 kids. i know shes trying to make $..

2. people- i feel weird around people. im NOT happy at all. and i am NOT myself at all..except when i am with xinen & guoxun. and i don't know why. i felt that humans are not supposed to be like this. somehow i still don't like the characters of people around me. i know this is no good, it does not benefits me at all. maybe i should just learn to accept. sorry,not now. im hating everything&everyone.

i have goals to achieve . and i want them to come true. that means hard work too.
now, the best i could acheive, was to do really well in my studies& my piano.

wish me luck, diary.

my english is failing. i don't get why. i reads..maybe partially. all right.. end of first post